10/7 Sara

On Saturday I worked for 10 hours (my choice) and then I went with *Samantha to party with her boyfriend and his friend. It was fun we were drinking, dancing and having fun. Samantha's boyfriend Nick is an asshole!!! But Nick's friend Shawn was okay. I got really drunk, told them I'll be right back and walked to his job to see him. His brother and him wanted me to come with them, but even though I wanted to go. I didn't because I told Samantha that I would be back. So I went back had sex with Shawn in the shower, then me and Samantha slept together. I woke up at 5 in the morning cold because I was naked and had no covers. Samantha was beside me naked too. I got dressed and told her I would see her at work today. I went to work and I had fun at work, but when I got off I had even more fun. I went to go see him. Of course. We went to this mexican party. Which I flashed all of them. He got drunk and was all over me in front of everyone. But I didn't care cause when he touches me all I see is him. ll I feel is him. I block everyone else out and only want to be with him. But even though we wanted each other so bad, we still pulled away. After all we were outside and cops kept on coming by. Me, him, Jose, and Omar went to Wal-Mart, which was fun!!! The rd there and back wasnt so fun because Omar kept on messing with me. But anyways, we went to go get a fish tank for him, because he just bought 4 scorpians from Xang. We got up to the cashier and he was talking to the woman about me being his wife and how he wanted to fuck me. Which was embarrassing but I still liked it. After Wal-Mart we went to other places and had a lot of fun. But, of course, at some point the fun ends. He took me home, again dropping me off a block away, I know how it goes, he tells me thank you, he'll see me tomorrow and then he gets his hug. Hugging me tightly, he wont let got, but eventually he will. So comfortable and loved I feel in his arms. But when he lets go I feel like weeping, because when I get his hugs I am loved, but when he lets go, I am broken hearted. Oh my god! I love him!!! But Why?

-Sara

10/6 Aburrida

Dear Friend,
Today is pretty lame. My eyes itch. I'm tired. Definitely ready for school to end. Idk why I like the fatboy. I think I'm like a golddigger in a sense. I kind of feel bad. My mom asks why am I friends with him and the only reason I can think of is because he does what I want him to. And gives me what I want. Awh I am such a bitch right now. Geez. I suck.

- Aburrida **

10/6 Gingertastic

I'm getting a new job. At least I'd better be acing this interview.

This school sucks ass.

I'm writing in pink.

there were fat naked men on my computer.

Life is cruel.

-Gingertastic =>

10/6 Anon

Wow I'm in love with the most amazing guy ever. I know I'm going to marry him. He means the world to me. He's a gamer, and always lets me borrow his games. He lets me ride the horses around his yard or whenever I want- I can ride them bareback or with a saddle. It's awsome. No other guy can measure up to him and I'd just die w/o him. Were talking about getting married, moving in together and starting our family and live together, I can't wait.

<3 Anon =)

10/06 Toni

Drinking and smoking obviously don't mix with me. Saturday night, the three of them came over because I had E&J, they had weed. We were gonna party hardy til the sun came up! We got to drinking, got to smoking, but we ran out of chasers, and 'Josh' and 'Joe' needed to go and get some cola. That left me and 'Jose' in my back yard together. I've known Jose since 6th grade. . . I've liked Jose since 6th grade. The next thing I knew, he was kissing on me! I guess I started it, he told me he was gonna bite off my tongue, and I told him I would bite his... he brings out the silliest in me! We had sex, after making out for about 20 minutes. I felt so bad, so dirty, because I had just had sex with Josh last weekend! Me feelings are so strong for Jose though! What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I feel horrible about having sex with guys I actually like, but feel nothing when I fuck guys I have no feelings for? I'm only 16, why have I had sex with so many guys that mean nothing to me? It's all about booty calls I guess. over and over with the same guys. Do I mean anything to Jose? Or am I just another notch on his bed post, like so many guys on mine? What about Josh? Him and Joe found us having sex! I can't even call him, afraid of what he thinks of me. I cant help but call myself a whore. Last night Jose came over with one of his buddies though. We smoked some, he was acting the same as he always does. Hugs, wrapping his arms around me, kissing my cheek, telling me he loves me. He was a little more sexual though, grabbing my ass, touching my boobs... Does this lessen the truth behind how I think he feels about me? Is it all just a show? Or... does he really like me? You have no Idea how happy that would make me. But then.. What about my girlfriend? And my guy, who buys me things and treats me like a goddess, as long as I keep kissing him and fucking him every other weekend, of course. Again, I label myself 'Whore'! And once again, there is guy in my art class, who I have feelings for! A tiny little huge crush. Are all these feelings even possible? I am. . . Whore. Hear me RAWR. Maybe I can learn to be better.... Settle down though? I think not. . . I'm having too much fun.

-Toni

10/06 Mrs. Stacy

Why do people always try pushing us around? "It's your choice" they say, but they all try to dissuade you from that decision. Why cant we love who we want to love? I am and I will, FUCK MY PARENTS. I am going to make my own decisions from now on. And my first one is going to be my choice to love who I want and I want to love her. No matter if she gets arrested I will sit there with her. No matter if my parents lock me in the house til I'm eighteen I will wait for her. she has already told me that she will wait for me. We WILL get married. We WILL spend the rest of our lives together. And no one is going to be able to stop us.

-Mrs. Stacy

10/06 Monkey

Hey you, whats up? Nothing really is going on (had to change pens lol) Sorry if you can't read this. Anyways I'm gonna go eat!

Peace & Love

-Monkey