10/1 EmoKat

Omg EmoKat*

Well I fell in love with my best friend. When I kissed her, everything changed. Our bond grew. I don't think she knew how I felt at the time. I was afraid she would freak out. I think she thought of the kiss as playing around. I didn't tell her my true feelings until a boy I hate, kissed her right in front of me. I told her later that day. I started crying because I was afraid of her reaction. But she didn't. She said she loved me too like they way I loved her. But she chose the boy over me. I was so mad that I treated her like a bitch. Then I had the final straw with her boyfriend when they had sex. I lost control I cried and cut and just sulked. it wasn't until yesterday that her boyfriend pissed me off again. I called her and said it's over the friendship between me and her was done. She then texted me later saying that she hated me and that the friendship had been long since over. and... that I never loved her. But that wasn't true she just wasn't the same person I fell in love with. She accused me of turning our friends against hr and playing mind games. I cut again, on both wrists. I called my friend and told her the story, she listened and made me feel better but I ended up crying myself to sleep.