10/7 Sara

On Saturday I worked for 10 hours (my choice) and then I went with *Samantha to party with her boyfriend and his friend. It was fun we were drinking, dancing and having fun. Samantha's boyfriend Nick is an asshole!!! But Nick's friend Shawn was okay. I got really drunk, told them I'll be right back and walked to his job to see him. His brother and him wanted me to come with them, but even though I wanted to go. I didn't because I told Samantha that I would be back. So I went back had sex with Shawn in the shower, then me and Samantha slept together. I woke up at 5 in the morning cold because I was naked and had no covers. Samantha was beside me naked too. I got dressed and told her I would see her at work today. I went to work and I had fun at work, but when I got off I had even more fun. I went to go see him. Of course. We went to this mexican party. Which I flashed all of them. He got drunk and was all over me in front of everyone. But I didn't care cause when he touches me all I see is him. ll I feel is him. I block everyone else out and only want to be with him. But even though we wanted each other so bad, we still pulled away. After all we were outside and cops kept on coming by. Me, him, Jose, and Omar went to Wal-Mart, which was fun!!! The rd there and back wasnt so fun because Omar kept on messing with me. But anyways, we went to go get a fish tank for him, because he just bought 4 scorpians from Xang. We got up to the cashier and he was talking to the woman about me being his wife and how he wanted to fuck me. Which was embarrassing but I still liked it. After Wal-Mart we went to other places and had a lot of fun. But, of course, at some point the fun ends. He took me home, again dropping me off a block away, I know how it goes, he tells me thank you, he'll see me tomorrow and then he gets his hug. Hugging me tightly, he wont let got, but eventually he will. So comfortable and loved I feel in his arms. But when he lets go I feel like weeping, because when I get his hugs I am loved, but when he lets go, I am broken hearted. Oh my god! I love him!!! But Why?

-Sara