10/7 Sara

On Saturday I worked for 10 hours (my choice) and then I went with *Samantha to party with her boyfriend and his friend. It was fun we were drinking, dancing and having fun. Samantha's boyfriend Nick is an asshole!!! But Nick's friend Shawn was okay. I got really drunk, told them I'll be right back and walked to his job to see him. His brother and him wanted me to come with them, but even though I wanted to go. I didn't because I told Samantha that I would be back. So I went back had sex with Shawn in the shower, then me and Samantha slept together. I woke up at 5 in the morning cold because I was naked and had no covers. Samantha was beside me naked too. I got dressed and told her I would see her at work today. I went to work and I had fun at work, but when I got off I had even more fun. I went to go see him. Of course. We went to this mexican party. Which I flashed all of them. He got drunk and was all over me in front of everyone. But I didn't care cause when he touches me all I see is him. ll I feel is him. I block everyone else out and only want to be with him. But even though we wanted each other so bad, we still pulled away. After all we were outside and cops kept on coming by. Me, him, Jose, and Omar went to Wal-Mart, which was fun!!! The rd there and back wasnt so fun because Omar kept on messing with me. But anyways, we went to go get a fish tank for him, because he just bought 4 scorpians from Xang. We got up to the cashier and he was talking to the woman about me being his wife and how he wanted to fuck me. Which was embarrassing but I still liked it. After Wal-Mart we went to other places and had a lot of fun. But, of course, at some point the fun ends. He took me home, again dropping me off a block away, I know how it goes, he tells me thank you, he'll see me tomorrow and then he gets his hug. Hugging me tightly, he wont let got, but eventually he will. So comfortable and loved I feel in his arms. But when he lets go I feel like weeping, because when I get his hugs I am loved, but when he lets go, I am broken hearted. Oh my god! I love him!!! But Why?

-Sara

10/6 Aburrida

Dear Friend,
Today is pretty lame. My eyes itch. I'm tired. Definitely ready for school to end. Idk why I like the fatboy. I think I'm like a golddigger in a sense. I kind of feel bad. My mom asks why am I friends with him and the only reason I can think of is because he does what I want him to. And gives me what I want. Awh I am such a bitch right now. Geez. I suck.

- Aburrida **

10/6 Gingertastic

I'm getting a new job. At least I'd better be acing this interview.

This school sucks ass.

I'm writing in pink.

there were fat naked men on my computer.

Life is cruel.

-Gingertastic =>

10/6 Anon

Wow I'm in love with the most amazing guy ever. I know I'm going to marry him. He means the world to me. He's a gamer, and always lets me borrow his games. He lets me ride the horses around his yard or whenever I want- I can ride them bareback or with a saddle. It's awsome. No other guy can measure up to him and I'd just die w/o him. Were talking about getting married, moving in together and starting our family and live together, I can't wait.

<3 Anon =)

10/06 Toni

Drinking and smoking obviously don't mix with me. Saturday night, the three of them came over because I had E&J, they had weed. We were gonna party hardy til the sun came up! We got to drinking, got to smoking, but we ran out of chasers, and 'Josh' and 'Joe' needed to go and get some cola. That left me and 'Jose' in my back yard together. I've known Jose since 6th grade. . . I've liked Jose since 6th grade. The next thing I knew, he was kissing on me! I guess I started it, he told me he was gonna bite off my tongue, and I told him I would bite his... he brings out the silliest in me! We had sex, after making out for about 20 minutes. I felt so bad, so dirty, because I had just had sex with Josh last weekend! Me feelings are so strong for Jose though! What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I feel horrible about having sex with guys I actually like, but feel nothing when I fuck guys I have no feelings for? I'm only 16, why have I had sex with so many guys that mean nothing to me? It's all about booty calls I guess. over and over with the same guys. Do I mean anything to Jose? Or am I just another notch on his bed post, like so many guys on mine? What about Josh? Him and Joe found us having sex! I can't even call him, afraid of what he thinks of me. I cant help but call myself a whore. Last night Jose came over with one of his buddies though. We smoked some, he was acting the same as he always does. Hugs, wrapping his arms around me, kissing my cheek, telling me he loves me. He was a little more sexual though, grabbing my ass, touching my boobs... Does this lessen the truth behind how I think he feels about me? Is it all just a show? Or... does he really like me? You have no Idea how happy that would make me. But then.. What about my girlfriend? And my guy, who buys me things and treats me like a goddess, as long as I keep kissing him and fucking him every other weekend, of course. Again, I label myself 'Whore'! And once again, there is guy in my art class, who I have feelings for! A tiny little huge crush. Are all these feelings even possible? I am. . . Whore. Hear me RAWR. Maybe I can learn to be better.... Settle down though? I think not. . . I'm having too much fun.

-Toni

10/06 Mrs. Stacy

Why do people always try pushing us around? "It's your choice" they say, but they all try to dissuade you from that decision. Why cant we love who we want to love? I am and I will, FUCK MY PARENTS. I am going to make my own decisions from now on. And my first one is going to be my choice to love who I want and I want to love her. No matter if she gets arrested I will sit there with her. No matter if my parents lock me in the house til I'm eighteen I will wait for her. she has already told me that she will wait for me. We WILL get married. We WILL spend the rest of our lives together. And no one is going to be able to stop us.

-Mrs. Stacy

10/06 Monkey

Hey you, whats up? Nothing really is going on (had to change pens lol) Sorry if you can't read this. Anyways I'm gonna go eat!

Peace & Love

-Monkey

10/06 J. Dizzle

I'm writing some <-(I broke my pencil there) back to my writing.. class is over -J-Dizzle

*So I was told that my entry wasn't long enough; this is my attempt to make it longer.

I furshur am pretty confused. seems things things haven't been right lately if that makes sense. This just don't add up.
What ever someone does in life there is someone that never approves of it. I sometimes feel that SHE doesn't approve with ME sometimes.
I try my hardest to make people happy, but it never seems to work. People just see me as another guy always saying stupid things or doing stupid things, but that's not what I want people to see me as. I just want to be friends and take things easy.
Math class makes me feel lonely and bored. I sit in the back. It allows me to think too much.
I feel there is something I need to tell her, something I HAVE to thell HER, but I just can't think of it.
Well time to get to work. This is were I leave my final statement.
(Final statement goes here)
In the end, things will make sense.

-J. Dizzle

10/06 Somebody

Well I just don't know anymore about making the right choices. I think I might be making a wrong decision but I'm just not sure yet. Hopefully things get better

-Somebody

10/03 <3 Me

Well ive decided I am finished with hoping to get back with my ex. As useless he is turning more into a dickhead... but im starting to like the friend more. he came back to school yesterday and when i seen him i got all happy. =\ same as this morning... idk what to do about theres guys anymore. i miss when we were younger and didnt have to worry about all of this. only worried about getting a note from the boy who supposebly likes you. why cant that happen anymore instead of having to decide what your going to do, who your going to be with, and everything else we have to make decisions on. im just getting sick and tired of this world. I wanna get out of it.. but then again i love the life i live. Idk, its all so confusing i guess its better this way, not knowing everything... who knows anymore.

-<3 Me

10/03 Aburrida

I'm freakin bored! Like always. Tired, like always. hungry. Like always. It's always the same things. My life is really boring. I think I could predict like everyday. I need something new and exciting. Maybe I should start experimenting with drugs? Or maybe kill someone? Or maybe a 3-some? Maybe I should become a lesbian? Idk but I need something new! School is so boring. Work is so boring. Life is boring! Boring Boring Life... Who needs is? Not me. Maybe I should just shoot myself In the head. Like the 4yr old girl. Maybe I need to get raped again. Just kidding. But seriously I need to do something. I'm freakin bored as fuck!

P.S. Fucking the same guys over and over again is boring too! Any takers???

-Aburrida

10/03 Sara

I've been trying to avoid him lately. But how long can that go on. It's only been one day!!! Already I'm trying to go back to him. He's my addiction. I try to hang out with someone else, but that never helps. I only want him more. I'll go to work today and any chance I get I'll be thinking of him. Maybe I should try and fall in love with someone else, though I don't thing that would help at all!

-Sara



below this post, there was a reply....

To Sara: I do know what you mean. Everyone seems to be so confused lately, and it is so hard to just "smile it out". Your friend Sid is always here for you.
<3 Sid

10/03 Sid

Sid here. So, today is going to be amazing. But I won't be in sixth hour to see him. I wonder if he knows or has a clue, probably not.

10/02 Sara

This is CRAZY! How can I be falling in love with him. I can name so many things that makes us not right for each other. Yet I still am falling for him. And I'm falling hard and fast. Last night I went to go see him and he was outside talking to two girls. I was extremely jealous, so I just kind of left. He's not mine so I can't be jealous. He called me and asked why I left him. I didn't really know what to say so I just told him that I didn't want to bother him when he was hangin' out with his friends. Which he then said "Fuck Them" he wanted to see me. Which made me happy. Still, the point is: I'm falling in love. And I'm changing. what happened to the innocent virgin? Oh well life goes on.

-Sara

10/2 Turkey

Turkey! I am a giant turkey, rawr. So things are so confusing right now. I'm so confused about my relationship, my friends, my dad, even about Sumner. I might have to see a psychiatrist. IDK if molly is right for me. I have crushes on people at school. I'm falling for one of my friends. Seriously, head over heals. I was in economics and I knew he was in the next room over. I knew if there was not a wall there, we would be looking right at each other, just thinking about him makes my heart pound so hard I can hear it, I start sweating, I start smiling. I remember the first time I set eyes on him, what he was wearing. The first thing I heard him say.
Its crazy.
I'm crazy.
Life is crazy.

-Turkey

10/1 Toni

Ive made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me & I've expected way less that what I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices & even though there are somethings I'll never get back & people who will never be sorry, I know better next time & wont settle for anything less than what I deserve.

-Toni

10/1 EmoKat

Omg EmoKat*

Well I fell in love with my best friend. When I kissed her, everything changed. Our bond grew. I don't think she knew how I felt at the time. I was afraid she would freak out. I think she thought of the kiss as playing around. I didn't tell her my true feelings until a boy I hate, kissed her right in front of me. I told her later that day. I started crying because I was afraid of her reaction. But she didn't. She said she loved me too like they way I loved her. But she chose the boy over me. I was so mad that I treated her like a bitch. Then I had the final straw with her boyfriend when they had sex. I lost control I cried and cut and just sulked. it wasn't until yesterday that her boyfriend pissed me off again. I called her and said it's over the friendship between me and her was done. She then texted me later saying that she hated me and that the friendship had been long since over. and... that I never loved her. But that wasn't true she just wasn't the same person I fell in love with. She accused me of turning our friends against hr and playing mind games. I cut again, on both wrists. I called my friend and told her the story, she listened and made me feel better but I ended up crying myself to sleep.

9/30 Spazziness

This post, I felt didnt hold justice if I simple typed it up. Here ya go ^_^

9/30 Jaze

I want a raise!

-Jase

9/30 Gingertastic

I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts, there they re a' standin in a row (1,2,3,4). Big ones, small ones, some as big as your head, give em a twist, a flick of the wrist, thats what the showman said!

But seriously, someone drew a nazi symbol on my arm.

CONSPIRACY!!!

-Gingertastic